Without even Dao being so scared I would have towed if I went to the Vet to get Dao a floral.
My friend told me even more thoughts of grace and mysticism and it was doubtful to choose to be here, many people believe.

You know she chose to be there not you who sells
My friend studied very expensively and as I always liked philosophy and that’s why I chose the name Dao.
Respect her time, it’s not love with a master.
My friend told me even more thoughts of grace and mysticism and it was doubtful to choose to be here, many people believe.
I have friends who follow Mystic.

But the vet told me that he could help him if I told him that I take it from my nervousness from my epilepsy to my friend who does it today let’s see why he explained that he has to be in the water during the day because if you give he will not keep.
So today I’m going to get a floral pain Dao.
Dao makes me think a lot and remember the philosophy and good nation.
Hi wonder what is in her mind. In my mind makes it to remember the first place that I went to Asia what’s the China then I was volunteer in Thailand, a d Lau. Then I started to go to countries around but it behind me that when I went to the temples in time there were many cats.
I wonder if their mind it’s cool and if he’s running from himself like I always did with myself. I hope that he will feel she’s like me more calm in front of the sea but maybe it is for my selfish.

Yesterday when a friend came by and she has a cat, she tried to touch her but she ran.
We needed me to take her to the vet.
We didn’t even know if it was a boy or a girl.
But at the time they tried and it was building.
I don’t know where anger or fear comes from
I warned you, but I didn’t know about the animals.
But today strange things with me.
I arrived early, and saw Dal distressed, and a nervous dog arrived.
I told the lady, it looks like your dog to me, and it looks like an epileptic fit. I explained that I spoke because I am epileptic. The lady told me what it is. It touched me and I said “I will play because I understand how it is”
I kept playing and saying “breathe, calm down, get out of that thought. Stop the nervousness, stay calm”
I stood still and knew I was slowing down. I know why it is in my crises.
But when it came time for our appointment.
Dao and how I thought it would be easier, but no. Not even the Veterinarian, it was the two of them and André.
But I found out that she is a girl and that she is still at home because the Vet thought it was better to stay put until the second phase of medication and she adopted to stay with us.
In other words, I think the day reminds me that we’re not all supposed to have peace. .
There is no greater calamity than the
And Dao (it’s like Tao) 🙂

21 days came to our house a cat. We do not know where it came from but the following day we went to a place to buy the food.
I know nothing about cats so I asked for my friend who has 11 cats.
Everybody who knows me and close they know that where is the cat.

As a rent in my house and I had to go I had to ask my friend to just put food when he comes back. The cat never allowed us to touching him he’s very small and if you’re close and they told me to just touch he doesn’t Allow.

But the most amazing thing is that we arrived a couple days here and yesterday André and his father saw the cat is under our car.
We have come from Ubatuba which is in front of the sea and came back to the house of the parents of Andre.

I don’t even believed that the cat had come because it is very hard to go from the sea up the city.
André was sure, so he put water and some food and quite fast heat.
Even if we hadn’t seen I thought let’s go to buy the food for the cat. The kind that we had learned from my friend Victor.

I found out the place of the animals of the house. Immediately I thought we had to find a way to take him back to her house in Ubatuba.
And then I saw he’s here I was so moved I cannot believe that he came all the way to travel with us.
André even had to understand where he’s coming from and we saw he goes inside of the car. I took so many pictures but he does not allow us to be close.

Andre’s parents knew a lot about animals and they have always made me to learn about patients. I understand that’s when people are pregnant have you had to wait for months this how are you feeling now is it going to go for me 🙂
Lets see when we will touch

When I arrives 20 years ago and my university das at Hofstra.I arrived at  happened 10 days before having  my class.As we arrived as foreigners , we have to sea our rooms. 

So in 20 days,  I have heard of people walk from different countries. They  different parts of the world from American,  Latin America from Europe Africa and Middle East
from Asia.  So I met and heard about their countries. 
Since I spoke Portuguese French Spanish and English I started with learning a lot about my friends. We did not have what’s up ,but I could hear different languages, and that I don’t know.    But I know that sun always called the family. 
  I starter to learn about Judaism,  Christianity Islam. I learn from,  I’m Taoism from Buddhism , Hinduism, sicle , spirituel, and Ignostic.
We arrived at the University and we are still yong.  We never have met so many People know the traditions.  We don’t care so much about religions.  I all about countries but I arrived 20 days before in, 911 .

I was in my room when my friend Caroline was desperate to talk.  I did not hear.  I heard the first bomb,  the second bomb than she was desperated.  I was close to my friend and I know her father works in the building. We were seating everything it was the TV.   

But luckily his father wasn’t working that day, but everything changed in the world and at the university.  It became much more difficult for my friends from the Middle East, countries in Africa, they are Islamic countries and they were seen with the eyes.

For me with my friends nothing has really changed as you wars have started I decided to learn more about international politics.
. I felt very sad oh my friends, who came from the   Middle East. None of them wanted the death of a new one.Just very sad to make people with fear with anger and without respect of other countries and traditions.

20 years ago real life then things change in one day.  I live in London and did my master and I abandoned my Phd at LSE. Therefore,  I was in was about Israel and Palestine.  
  I wander how people are being all over the world with Covid is there going to the university. I do know many friends wants to know about the power of the words

But now I don’t want to know what is the control inside.
I have a learn from my friends I’m from their traditions of different countries. Since Caroline lived with Pet they both came here in my house and it is in front of Sea.
And since Pet had invited me to go to China to , Hong Kong, I started to learn more about Asia, and Dao.
But every morning I look at the sun I look at the Sun and Sea , the proud earth and the moon. In a way I am glad to sea and I feel the Spirit are alive.

My First memories of my epileptic attack.
My college scholarship was for me to study in the US . In the first day I met at the fist day that I met Felipe, Leila and Mounia.

Felipe had a scholarship like me. We both are born in in Brasil. We had met me meat in the US. I met at first day days. As we were the first days , we met the foreigners. I met very fast Leila and Moon and we became friends. Mounia and Leila come from Morroco.

I people of the world, I became friends of people who came of different part of the of the world. Leila mother , and she was born in France, her father is from there. Her family lived for the world. In morro come speak in
But life is complete, Since I mix languages that in morocco some people speak Arabic and older speak French . Moon told me that to her parents she spoke in French, But her grandma did not speak French.Morocco becomes a French protectorate in 1921. But since my schools were in French and English when I was young and after I had to comas if it was from languages it would be harder to speak.

But life is complete, Since I mix languages that in morocco some people speak Arabic and older speak French . Moon told me that to her parents she spoke in French, But her grandma did not speak French.Morocco becomes a French protectorate in 1921. But since my schools were in French and English when I was young and after I had to comas if it was from languages it would be harder to speak

I traveled alone and then I was seeing the country and see the difference for additions but when I arrived the border between Morro and Ceuta, Spain.

Since I was traveling alone,This all the men told me it was very dangerous to travel alone I told him I always do it.He told me he travel here I transporting things to Spain in Celta invite me to be in the car.He told me he could show me all the places and I did.

It was comfortable in a car he was polite but as a crossed the man was so happy to me go out and even looking at my passport maybe because he could look I am not African but I didn’t know yet.

As I arrived the hotel I was in Europe the difference between the life I decided the following day I would come back to morocco.

As I went to the border it was the most sad moment that I have seen they were people way back to Africa disappointed that’s what was his plan didn’t work.

The police told me I should be the first it was a Normas Q of people and I told her I would stay.He told me and white you can go first it made me sad.

Even all the men who are black they told me it would be if I go the first and when I cross I could see any Normas few of hundreds and hundreds of people of the whole Africa trying to go to Europe.

So much injustice inside of my mind of my brain I don’t know as I came to the house of Moon I talked and how much I like morocco I love morocco but at night I had my first epileptic attack.

My Mind and the Spirit . We are from the World.

I am 40 years and I am looking what is the path ? . I already read away
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I was 13 years old and I said to mom “That if you know, I am not from my school”. I ran away several times. . So in my life it was the way to understand, what is the purpose of our life.

I can remember a lot , about me just going. From my first exchange,first university in Brasil, ran inside of my university

Hofstra in the Us, and to do an exchange to Amsterdam. I met my first husband Haiko, We moved do the UK. There I got Mimy master at the from my Phd LSD, but as I got my Phd I tan away . And I was aways run in the word. Then I had 2 comas and many times I came back to the Hospital. I was in hospitals in London, Thailand, Brasil. Those hade firsts I sleep in hospital.

Then I got a great new husband. Then we moved to Peru. And I loved Peru, but it is all in my brain. Sas I could not to speak , moving parts of my hands. Em lille by time I am back in my second Comas

The beginning was fear, and then angry, and bow I am great at medicine .

As I am here and from the word , I will write every day from what I have learned from the lessons and losses and how , and paths

As I have talking to my Professor Mustapha, I said I was influenced by the wild like us.

His class was “ Decolozin the mind” and that class always made me to understand my self. It always made to run my self .

I was born in Brasil. My school as a child it was in english, and in french. I was then living in Buenos Aires , and my school it was frechas and Spanish.

I studied for a few years at a school in Brazil, and I ran away from my university in Brazil.

And so many things I studied, and I tried to write. If it were schools, languages ​​I can’t study and I’m writing in my mind

Somehow the mind is part of me in the world. I’m still in my quest of my mind.g

My Mind and the Spirit . We are from the World.

I am 40 years and I am looking what is the path ? . I already read away
.
I was 13 years old and I said to mom “That if you know, I am not from my school”. I ran away several times. . So in my life it was the way to understand, what is the purpose of our life.

I can remember a lot , about me just going. From my first exchange,first university in Brasil, ran inside of my university

Hofstra in the Us, and to do an exchange to Amsterdam. I met my first husband Haiko, We moved do the UK. There I got Mimy master at the from my Phd LSD, but as I got my Phd I tan away . And I was aways run in the word. Then I had 2 comas and many times I came back to the Hospital. I was in hospitals in London, Thailand, Brasil. Those hade firsts I sleep in hospital.

Then I got a great new husband. Then we moved to Peru. And I loved Peru, but it is all in my brain. Sas I could not to speak , moving parts of my hands. Em lille by time I am back in my second Comas

The beginning was fear, and then angry, and bow I am great at medicine .

As I am here and from the word , I will write every day from what I have learned from the lessons and losses and how , and paths

As I have talking to my Professor Mustapha, I said I was influenced by the wild like us.

His class was “ Decolozin the mind” and that class always made me to understand my self. It always made to run my self .

I was born in Brasil. My school as a child it was in english, and in french. I was then living in Buenos Aires , and my school it was frechas and Spanish.

I studied for a few years at a school in Brazil, and I ran away from my university in Brazil.

And so many things I studied, and I tried to write. If it were schools, languages ​​I can’t study and I’m writing in my mind

Somehow the mind is part of me in the world. I’m still in my quest of my mind.

My cousin Fe told me that I should start writing again. That made me look for my blogs “decolonizinando a mente” and “ translating Thoughts” on WordPress. So I looked, what I wrote before my comas.

It impressed me when I saw what I had written when I went to Palestine. Nothing disappears from my mind, having written and it reminded me clearly of every place where I went, of the people I meat. Having written it made me look for the pictures I meat. In other words, I was writing that I knew I could find.

But writing represents us, much more than I imagined. In addition to the enormous value of what people taught me, it reminded me of a friend in his doctorate who was doing his research in the middle of Africa. He was from Israel and he was doing in another area of mine, but we were at the LSE.m

In Israel, a man and a woman are required to to go to the army if you are not Orthodox. . As this my friend had denied, he was imprisoned for three years. One in Israel and two in Palestine. It was in prison that he learned to speak Arabic.

Today I realize that education is fundamental. I realize that as I learned when I was young Portuguese French Spanish and English. Today when I block a word in Portuguese it comes to me another language I had learned young. I think how much of it helps me that I had learned as a child. It stays in our brain. I had learned it in school.

But why do I say that? When I asked my friend why doesn’t he do about Palestine and Israel? He stopped and said and why don’t you do your research about Brazil?
It happened years ago but now I understand better. Yesterday a person I met asked me how the weather was in Ubatuba and who wanted to come here and pay a visit.

When I said it was not the time to travel and have contact with people, this lady told me that this COVID was a political fight.

I had already received people and did not take the covid seriously. But when a great childhood friend told me that she was sick. Her and her whole family have covid. It made me wake up. Here in Ubatuba since I saw it, more than a year ago almost nobody takes the covid’s seriously. My parents in Sao Paulo take it much more seriously and were impressed that I told them about it.

Here came my internal conflict. It is easy for me to be standing here in nature and in front of the seas. But how could I explain it to a person who is not in nature?

So my friend from Israel came to my mind that I didn’t do about his country’s problem. I understand how it is always easier to deal with the problem from a distance. And the hardest thing is to find, as I could say.

She told me these covid it was a problem in Brazil. So I told my friends from Palestine from Europe, the United States in Thailand etc that they wanted to know about me and knew about the chaos here. And so many places that asked if I was okay. I told how people are closed, with rules that it was not political it was science.

Maybe on my selfish side, I didn’t take care till my childhood friend and her entire family are in the hospital. It made me to sea how serious it is.

My father had told me to buy a television, the news and to go back to studying from how the seriously it is. For such a long time, but only now that I woke up.

And I start taking it very seriously. But how to get back to the newspaper. So I explained that I would not see anyone. I told her it’s not that I want what I do for fear of dying, I don’t want to cause it to the other.

So I write as I used to, I wrote thinking about others, not just about me. I realize writing fundamentally if I hadn’t written in the past I couldn’t remember.

The reflections come after reading what I had written before. I am grateful to Fernanda because before I would not have thought of the fundamental point of what I wrote.

When we are small we have to learn to read, write and reflect. It is fundamental to the mind, we all have to ponder what is going on. Just as I write because in this government the money for public schools and universities is decreasing. These are of high value.

The value of not knowing. Because someone wants science to be devalued, education is devalued does not accept what I said, what is going on in the world.

I write what reminds me of the value of science and education. See who does not force you to accept a truth if you do not question, this is not science, this is not freedom, and it does not care about you or me

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Every day I am having tea, which I think has many benefits, and made me think about it. Of course, I am not one who knows how to cook and is not bought ready, and I decided to tell you about things. In fact, I started reading everything I should eat instead of buying vitamins. People who know I was born to a thin and obese grandmother. My mother wanted me not to be overweight. And I thought it was out of prejudice against obese people. Anyone who has known me since I was little, knows that I was obese and today I am thinner. I wanted to tell everyone to make their choices.

These days when I started drinking tea that Ananta taught me. The first time I started drinking tea was when I was about 20 years old and I went to my friend Pet’s family home. And it was in China. There they took me for breakfast and brought me tea. And I asked for water, they brought me hot water and explained that even in the heat, change to ice cream. At that time I lived in the USA. He drank soda and cold water.

I got fatter. In fact, until when, at the age of 15, I lived in Australia. And so I was able to walk a lot, did not exercise, and did not think about health. Even because I thought “Skinny is boring, they want to piss me off, and they’re stupid. “I ate like the thought“ like what I like ”I wanted a photo and my mother and I leave one that was already thin because I preferred to take pictures of others. What did I think?

When I lived in London I ended up going to Morocco and had my first epileptic fit. And when I returned to London I went to the hospital and wanted to leave. Not knowing what to do, I went looking for an alternative method. And it started with a week of fasting. It started to change me. And I ended up going to India, and there I always drank a lot of tea. Today I am on both sides of medicine and I think a lot about the food we put in us.

Now it’s been about 3 weeks since Ananta came, who is the father of my great friend Sho. I had even met in Vietnam and they came here in Ubatuba. Ananta does yoga early every day, and I drink my tea which was lemon, ginger, propolis and honey. He told me it was good, but he suggested that I also add saffron and carrots. So I started and I love it so much. Ananta is 78 years old and his life is incredible.

I started watching my friends from 70 to 80, 90. Now I learned what a 101-year-old lady, Dona Maria, who is Anísia’s mother, who was the housekeeper at Grandma’s Ubatuba house. It became as clear as the relationship between food and movement and mind. Grandma and I went to her 100th birthday party last year, and she was using a wheelchair. That was the last time Grandma came to Ubatuba. Yesterday I heard that Dona Maria went to a nutritionist, she stopped eating porridge only, improved her diet and started walking again.
Sonia, who was a friend of Grandma, is 95 years old, and now walks with a walker daily. This walker was Grandma’s. And he talks to Grandma on her walks and as she says: “I walk with my friend every day”. She knows how to call whats on me. And one day she sends me pictures. They were friends before they had children. I am talking to several friends of 90 years who have now had to learn how to use their minds again. They never stop learning new things. I see you know how to use your mind. As Dona Maria knew that she was in a wheelchair for eating only porridge. She went back to eating fruits, vegetables, etc. and the body celebrating 101 walking.

Food is essential. That’s why I write this. Both food and movement as we see at present. And I, who was obese of thoughts, say how we are. I see all my grandmother’s friends in gym until 90 now activate new things. Naoko, who is over 80 and continues everything from the mind is active in everything. Ananta, 78, took this photo every day early. And I, my mother, who is 73, exercises every day and walks. In fact, my parents go to the mask club but not for anything. I, the contra, see how fundamental this is.

So I started doing more and I’m more active. I realize that even if everything is slow, any movement is better. It does not depend on age, class, or vision. I say why I was already fat, I already had no second coma, and I who could not walk and needed an orthopedist, who wanted to stop every second with so many explanations. But here I went to see the sun rise and I started to see it walking, running. Many who do before work. So I try to follow the active elderly because I admire them too much. Even because this year I’m 40 :).

I think of everyone, that we all make ourselves our best choices. The body is always active because what we drink and eat and our bodies are our minds. May we keep everything we are in the best way.

As love,
Ju

Today I want to tell you how touched I was to go to the hospital alone. I know that my mother wanted to go with me, André too, but I felt an internal strength to go alone.

It reminded me of how I used to go everywhere in the world alone. And now I felt what it means, that we depend on others. What does it mean?

The truth we always need from others :). I wanted to remember what it was like, how I did it before. Of course it is talking and watching others 🙂

So I went to the Middle East, Asia, Africa, Europe and Latin America. And I alone could learn from others.

But I started going out on my own when I met an Australian lady who was 83 in Bolivia. This lady didn’t even know how to speak Spanish and she traveled from there to Europe to get to know Latin America without being a tour group. I wanted to demonstrate to my daughters that being a widow is not that life is over, life goes on.

And I realize that the best is learning from others. And she suggested I go to Peru. I was traveling with Sho and I said: “Sho, I’m going to abandon you because if she doesn’t even talk and can do it, I’ll try.” And of course, she taught me to always appreciate how there is so much goodness in humanity. I learn from everyone. Because I had gone to listen to music and there were only 3 people in the audience. When I spoke in Spanish and she said she didn’t know, I invited her to sit at our table. There she told us.

But today, when I was almost 40, I left a new neighborhood and took a taxi, because I saw him from the side and agreed to pay with a card, and because it reminded me of Grandma, I took the taxi more so as not to give Andre trouble to take, and she didn’t I knew how to get Uber :). But Grandma knew they were in a taxi way, and taxi drivers were no longer valued as before.

When I arrived at the hospital, I explained right away that maybe I was wrong, but then I entered my exams and always with the stories of talking to everyone on the way to get it right.

I know that what touched me most were the things I saw and talked about.

First, when I arrived long before the punctual, I saw many elderly people. Perhaps what touched me most was seeing three ladies aged 80 to 90 years waiting. I thought they were wearing masks and I thought they were all going to have exams before me. One of them was reading a book and two were talking, but I didn’t know what it was.

I also saw 2 women who arrived with a baby. They arrived on time and went together to take their son. But the old woman continued to read and suddenly a lady’s name was spoken.

When she got up to go, her friend said “don’t take everything you can forget”, the friend agreed but said: “better the basics, I’ll take it but you keep my bag”. That touched me too much. Ladies from about 80 to 90 will accompany your friend. The other had not gone to take the exam she was a friend.

When I went for the exam and told the doctor, “I was touched to see how friends help each other and it is not losing freedom, a type of prison.” I said it because I know many who had children and say that despite being a prison they love this prison. I apologized if you have children. And to my surprise, “I agree, we are already in a new generation and many like you and so many of my friends prefer to have a dog.”

And when I left and it was the lady’s time to read, she stopped and said, “It’s hard to miss a part of the book. Then I have to go back to understand. “Wait, I’m going to read and I’m going. He went down, read a little more and then went. “I admired it too much. She alone and realized she was watching and said: “Reading is very important, you are never alone with a book”

My admiration for the elderly never ends. Now Grandma Daisy’s friend, who is 93, sends me whatsapp messages, writes, helps the maid’s son who has lived for 9 years. Since he was born and as she knows how I admire it a few days ago, the boy has scored 10 in the tests, had an explosion of happiness. Daisy helps him in all matters. And it is this boy who calls her grandma.

I admire it too much. Even these days, we must always watch and talk to others. Hence my admiration for going alone, it is because I see how it is that even there is always the other, everything we see is like a book.

With love
Jules