I used to watch birds, without any responsibility, and one day a cat showed up at home.
André was in love with the cat, and I was happy that the cat was free from nature, but I thought about the birds that flew and ate right next to us. We don’t even know if this cat was male or female for a long time. And I didn’t even consider that it would stay at home.
One day, we were traveling from Ubatuba to Guaratinguetá. And when we arrived, André suddenly said, “Ju, the cat is here.”
I thought it was impossible, how could I have gone, but in the end it was the same cat.
At my in-laws’ house, where they have dogs. Well, the cat was afraid of all of us. The dogs tried to check who was there, and we wanted to bring food and stay close.
It took a week and the cat was scared to death. And I was scared 🙂, of knowing what it does?
André told me, “Now you have to accept the house cat.”
I confess, I thought it was a disaster. It would eat the birds and I wouldn’t even see them. But life is funny, and I also started thinking about names it would be.
If I found out it was female, it would be Tara, if it was male, it would be Gandhi, but until we know, Dao or Tão (from Taoism). Anything that was in the style of Azia.
I immediately went to ask friends who have cats and for advice. I, who always love not having responsibility, have already been told. They even taught me that I need to have a vet, choose a pet shop, I should have my cat neutered and buy a cat box.
I even found out about the food selection, which was almost surreal, even considering it absurd, like what kind of wine I can afford 🙂
André was shocked that I would even bring a little house for Dao. And toys, yes, we need the transport box. Even without knowing if we would consider keeping it close to Dao.
Dao ran a search under the car, and was terrified of the dog.
But when Manuel managed to put him in the transport box, Dao saw inside the car, not in the engine.
There he started changing everything.
But now I’ll let Dao say what he thinks. Especially since a new cat has arrived.
Fortunately, along the way, they even make me understand the prisons of my mind. I see that meeting people along the way makes me think about all those who are not locked into concepts, but know that the mind is only in this void that frees us from our prisons.
And it’s on this path, it’s these friends who don’t let themselves be trapped by concepts, they’re the ones who make me help our mind, they help me to free myself.
This touched me so much, so much medicine, my dangerous wounds, medicine, ayuasca will make me hallucinate. The good thing is that faith and meditation are what free me the most from presence.
It transforms the sensory faculty, I understand how we lose consciousness, it transforms the body, the mind like a hallucination. I know how spiritual something can feel, but to me it feels like it comes from losing awareness of where it’s coming from.
This for me started hallucinating since I had my first coma. And it seems that I took a lot of medicine in the hospital, and even psychiatry and neurology, ayuaska, but I feel like the mind can be freed.
I loved learning that, among all the hallucinations, we should not fight with them, not follow the thought. We must be conscious of our thinking.
I felt so happy, I was just trying to stay present, and encouraging my friends doesn’t discourage illness, injury, etc. I want to demonstrate how, on our path, we can help our minds. I even feel the beauty of our losses. For me, it’s knowing how to be present.
In those years, I came to see the beauty in the simplicity of people who don’t even want to show it.
I loved these days and André and I went to sleep with the natives of Waiampy, which is in Amapa. The Kikiwa shaman who did not take Ayuaska, because he is too sensitive to take it. And even though he doesn’t speak Portuguese much and I don’t even know how to speak his language, we still talk. I was close to indigenous people from different regions of Brazil.
It touched me to meet and talk with Benki Piyãko, about the trees and the plantation. He taught me to plant local things, not bring them from outside Brazil. We come from Ubatuba Araça, and we also plant Jussaras there.
So, writing makes me look at indigenous people, it even makes me think of the ancient teachings of Taoism and respect for nature, like even Siddhartha who stands next to the tree and becomes the Buddha and rises.
So those of us who accept hallucination and even see that there is a variety of what is real. But on my journey, the hallucinations, the illnesses, the injuries are almost a duality of what is or is not. On this path, gratitude makes me present.
I try to stay away from Instagram, and Facebook, and even from the phone that sends messages all the time
It’s been a while that I try sending messages, and the sound keeps me from focusing. I even stopped making calls, because now I think that I don’t want to be trapped by the phone, as I was born without a phone, and I lived a long time without wanting others to know about my life, and even showing where I am.
I always wanted to write, and put on my blog (decolonizing the mind) what I learned on my journey, and learned throughout my life. Now my blog is called translating thoughts
But suddenly, I started publishing everything on Facebook and Instagram and I didn’t even understand it and my friends didn’t even want to have this Facebook and Instagram route because they already knew how it works.
I’ve been out of focus for a while. Before they said it was a loss of areas of the brain, but I don’t think that’s the case, it’s just everyone’s way of life now.
I even stopped listening to everything. Without the sound, then I look and see messages that I hear beautiful things and nothing negative.
So I started to refocus. It took me a while looking at the photos, face, instagram and contacts, but I doubt I’ll regret it.
So, I stopped checking my phone much. Or rather, I started using my phone to write which helps me focus. .
I think I’m tired of being dominated by mind control, and dominating what we see.
It’s been a while since I thought the 1889 book The Brothers Karamazov made it clear how manipulation works.
What are the brothers like? 1 brother is in the military, 2 is a journalist, 3 is from the church. Nothing has changed, everything is faster like Instagram, Tik Tok and Facebook, as they want to demonstrate reality
The beautiful thing is that in our search for the essence of our life we have to be aware of our inpermanence in everything, even in breathing, in everything. But for all of this, we have to be able to focus
Then we stop and we can see everything and we don’t even need classes. We need to connect with people who are connected like this. We have to be conscious of our mind.
Writing even helps me think about how, in fact, everything about loss makes us stop looking for help, but that’s not it. I feel observing life, even plants as it is, and connected people brings us compassion. It seems to me that they make me understand internal peace.
But I also understand that the paths are different from others. We all have to find our Oca, which is philosophically our mind. At that time we found the path, which we chose.
Of course, neither Facebook, nor Instagram, nor Tik Tok oblige us. But, every time we are encouraged to visualize others, and demonstrate what we want to others, and change things quickly and put a lot of information in our mind without us even being aware. From this I want to learn to be more present and understand the focus of even people, or even a film and understand what it is. In other words, I want to learn our mind.
I discovered that for me we have 2 options in our life, whether we want to leave our mind positive, or our mind negative.
How we want despair, in illness in death. We must make our choice. How we want to stay in our mind.
On this path that the negative appears, it even manages to dominate our mind. Maybe you can see the negative part of my mind.
Therefore, on our path there are people who, when positive, bring us love. Those who are very elevated by negativity can see love, but for me it even brings me pain.
But even when we manage to get on the positive path. Sometimes we don’t even want to write, speak, count. But there, in our silence, it is not solitude, it is an observation of life.
I have enjoyed meditating, sleeping, and observing nature and our lives. When this spirituality has come to me, my friends have come to appear in my mind, and how they are beyond encounter with life.
And to my surprise, even due to their generosity, the words of those they know in the Amazon shared with me.
Dear ones, I am discovering that the voice of silence is our spirituality. It seems that our emptiness is of a very profound beauty.
It seems to me in illness, death and the path that we want to find our emptiness.
It touched me even more that I learned from Pajé Moisés Piyãko, who is from Amazonia and sees the spirituality of silence. The silence that is in nature, the spirits. Everyone can connect with spirituality. We have to find the Silence.
My arrogance is difficult to reduce. But I want to.
In a way it lessens when I’m sure of something.
And even an epileptic fit when I want to prove something that I am sure.
But when I want to prove myself I attack myself.
I ran away from my school Lycee Pasteur and I was 13 years old. Or when I was at college in Ny and wanted to go to Amsterdam. And my master’s degree and my doctorate at LSE in London were about Israel and Palestine, and I wanted to leave ˋ In my quest to defend Palestine, not even being Jewish, Christian or Muslim. And wanting peace from everyone.
And I always debated a way of being a mental elite. I ran away
Well, I was losing areas of my brain and body, but the anger that I disagreed with made me even attack my body when I disagreed.
Well, now my new discord area is how they destroy nature.
I try to compost, and recycle, and plant.
My house is on the seafront and I live with my husband. I’ve heard so many things.
“You are poor, you are rich, you should have a child, you should adopt, you should have security. You are leaving litter, animals are coming”
But André knows, says nothing, but I do. I’m going to teach my arrogance
“Don’t put cars in front of my house. Don’t cut down the trees, and watch the Documentaries Fertile soil. We are vegetarians and vegans. Trash is composting and recycling. From small rubbish it goes to the trash. Fruit composting has been reborn.”
But this arrogance later made me regret it and made me regret it a lot. And I just want to be able to help nature.
When the sea enters my house, I admire nature more. I just want to connect with the same people who are in my path. They know that they are much stronger than us human beings
Nothing about my path matters to me, nothing about demonstrating wealth or poverty. Neither have children or adopt, and security No meu caminho também parei de ligar de coisas políticas, filosofia, ou teologia
Every day, living in front of the sea, the existence of my journey, of my arrogance, is to defend nature
When the sea comes in we try to observe what nature wants. These are my gods
I’ll leave the article that you can even hear the sound of the tree, and the one in the documentary. This is our path. I just have to learn to displace the arrogance in my mind.
But as my friend Ana Paula said
““Your mind needs to become familiar with letting go, the flow.
This issue of arrogance is a lack of acceptance, a lack of relaxation, what others think belongs to others…
What they do you can’t change them, the only person you can change is yourself 🙏🏼”
But we need to help nature to live.
Love Jules
Plants aren’t silent. They make clicking sounds, a study finds
Dear ones, I want to share. I was a vegetarian and once the doctor told me that I needed to eat meat. Against my desire I ate. It gave me high cholesterol and I went back to vegetarianism. Worried about my immunity, I started eating a lot of eggs and cheese.
My exam when I was vegetarian said I had cholesterol and my neurologist said it was genetic. I said I would try being vegan and find out. I’ve been vegan since November 2nd and I feel great. I had my blood test and LDL 250 as a vegetarian. Then decide to try being vegan. Now I took the exam and it was 100 LDL
Well, in my family we are free to choose what to eat. My father even said “I came from a family that lives to eat, and my mother eats to live”
Well, I would eat it with pleasure and not even realize where the food comes from. I have lived in many countries (Brazil, Argentina, Australia, USA, UK, Netherlands, Thailand, Peru,
To complement my happiness I watched the Netflix documentary, “You are what you eat”. A vegan and carnivore test. And our diet is also related to the mind. This documentary is a test with identical twins. Of course, so are food production and gymnastics.
Well, after my second coma and lots of brain injuries in 2017, I didn’t know what I should eat either. I started eating Japanese food, fish, vegetables, salad and fruit and I didn’t even pay attention, just pleasure. I thought I ate very well. But when my friend Sho, who I’m close to, passed away and I went to the hospital in 2021. Always when it seems like it’s an emotional thing, but at the hospital they thought I had too little vitamin B12 and that I should eat meat.
But last year, in November, I took a blood test and it showed that my cholesterol was so high that I had to take medication. My doctor thought it was genetic, but I said I was going to be vegan. Still traveling with my parents in Spain, on the wine route. I managed and walked a lot
But when I took the exam and it had been 2 months since I even knew if I was going to fall, it really moved me. And when the documentary showed the twins’ exams and their health, it brought me enormous gratitude. It is from Netflix
It seemed to me that genetics can be modified. Extremely happy because in my freshness I will become like my mother and mine
You could even call it fresh. But I want to eat to live, and I’m loving being vegan. Even more so to live. And be part of defending the Amazon and animals
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Last year, I told about my first coma, that I stayed for 30 days and a goddess (Or Tara) came and told me why do you want to live? At that time, my grandmother said, and my boyfriend.
Today I would say, and I say, “I live to share, a fall is a gift, and for me to learn when negative thoughts come and discover the beauty, and see the positive side. ”.
And only when I started I learned why it comes on our spirituality route. And when the negative returns, suddenly you see the beauty of the fall again, there it makes you be present.
You know that we don’t even notice that a person enters our life paths.
At the beginning of my first injury to my brain. It was in 2007, and I lived in London. I was 26 years old and had already lived in so many countries, and traveled alone. At that time I went to India.
So, sitting in the Dalai Lama’s class and I didn’t even want to be there. I was already the person who demonstrated my thoughts.
I sat next to 2 women and started learning about Buddhism. And I didn’t even want to learn.
I know I became friends with Denise Robson who felt she should meet Hh Karmapa. And I didn’t even know who she was.
I lost her, lost my mind and my brain. She made me meet Lama Lobsang who gave lectures in London and I never went.
In a way, I see that he has been dead for years and I understand his teachings, even though my brain was more destroyed in the years 2013, 2017, 2020. For me, every time it was related to an emotional thing.
But it was in 2008 that I learned from Lama Lobsang “It’s a gift”
Today, in 2024, I see how we have to have positive thoughts.
So my dears, in our lives we have to accept our existence. When we were left lamenting, it was like diminishing our desire to get better.
Sometimes I didn’t even realize how many people were positive, and I wanted to go to the place of suffering, to debate when people called me that I don’t exist, I’m ignorant, etc.
What you have to see is a gift. When I messed up my brain, it made me erase my arrogance more, and in my ignorance it started to flow along my path of compassion.
Like so many on our path, we have to accept the essence of our soul.
So whoever has a fall, look for beauty. Makes the agent stand still. Sometimes it’s our struggle with nuts, even if we have to love them. This way we can understand our essence, and I am very grateful that they came my way.
When I couldn’t speak, walk, hallucinating was even being present. But such a positive word as one person said “We use few areas of the brain. Try another area.” Or when he said “We all hallucinate what our mind understands what the other hears.” That made me realize I was trying not to even debate, but really wanting to understand, before speaking. I discovered how many thoughts are automated and we don’t even realize it.
So even though I don’t know the face, the name makes it clear that we are the same. In our internal search. When we begin to accept our mirror, then comes the attempt at compassion in everything. Even with my defects, I look at the beautiful things that are, not at the defect.
Real gratitude, deep and sometimes I don’t even know how to recognize faces, names. But the words of beautiful things.
I loved writing and reading. The day I went to send a message to my friend who lives in Sweden and explain what happened in my brain I asked for help from technology.
Neither a doctor, nor a speech therapist, nor a psychologist. So when I wanted to say about my soul, about my mind, I had to learn to do it slowly.
It hurt me to do it quickly. I even let my mistakes be my existence and I’m not even ashamed. For those who pass by like me, it helps Google translate.
Let it speak and it becomes written. Then listen. Start if that’s what you think. And if you speak another language, you also listen and perhaps turn around and go back until you are sure of what you think.
So, he started writing again, and. reading is harder :).
But it was my friend who made me want to share what was going through my brain. When I found out, I suffered from knowing, then I was happy that I managed to understand, then I wanted to share how we can improve from injuries and not look for the negative.
When I wrote, sometimes mixing languages is on our minds. Here in Brazil, they think I’m a foreigner. I loved it, better than the sick one. And when I discovered that foreigners read my blog I felt enormous gratitude. It’s what makes me more present.
I came back and I was thrilled to see the tree and I felt it, and I touched the tree and I began to understand again why I stopped to look at the trees. It was there that I felt that I returned from the path of Spirituality. The club is about sports, but it feels like a small town 🙂
Then I saw a lady and asked me if I knew how she could call a club cart. I said I didn’t know.
She told me that the club helped her when she became a widow and didn’t even know what she could do.
I had a plan to go to a coffee place at the club, I took a couple of steps I looked at the trees and felt why I wouldn’t help that lady. I found out, sat next to her and we started talking.
When she was 80 she became a widow, and has been at the club for 10 years. She dances, swims and has gained many friends and loves seeing nature.
When I told you that I love living in Ubatuba, which is in Brazil, and that I had lived in so many areas of the world, but I had never lived next to trees. One thing that is not nationality is wanting to give back to nature and reduce my pollution.
I no longer debate news, but André and I compost and start to see how life never ends. Like when what we eat is reborn.
She told me that her son is a doctor and discovered happiness when he bought a little farm and started composting, recycling, planting and eating natural things. She loved going to meet but she didn’t want to lose her friends.
This Mrs Juracy told me that her father was Japanese, and she doesn’t take medicine. And on the same day I went to visit my friend Laura at Hospital Israelita Albert Einstein. Wow, even more spirituality came from our conversations.
I say the Hospital is my hotel, we even laughed about our losses, illnesses and nothing negative. We have so many conversations and I told them about Mrs. Juracy.
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My friend Lau is a neurologist and knows the consequences of my brain, and it’s incredible to be well. Deeper because as Lau said, friends are fundamental.
I was so touched to see Lau, and suddenly during our conversation, Sa called me. When I was in the hospital and she was the one who called. She was arriving from the USA and called.
We’ve been friends since we were doing our doctorates. Lau studied neurology, Sa studied mathematics, and I studied cognitive anthropology. And I say that even my ignorance of brain injuries made me more humble.
I took an Uber to leave, and I’m the one who talked to the driver who was diagnosed with terminal cancer, and when he was at peace, no one understands why he didn’t die. . Just like I really don’t know what I have. So I even sent it to Lau
“Lau, I was super grateful to have seen you. All our spirituality, having seen your sister (is it Taís?), Luciana and even from a distance we spoke with Sa 🙂 Everyone who loves you and shares everyone. Very grateful, you know, even in a hospital compassion fluctuates. With love Jules”
That moment we even think is spiritual, that I felt from trees and my friends that make me let a spirituality float.
So when we saw each other I understood that Mrs Juracy made me meet in a conversation next to a tree.
Like after losing what her life was like, and how she became a widow. She abandoned sadness, and some friends stayed close to her and went to discover her new path. Even she gained her new friends.
This is is Wigwam , they are our friends who don’t judge us, nor care about our losses that fluctuate, that appear over the years, and were close to the trees. My friends, they are my Hot.
As I have friends all over the world, and they want me to get into conflict. Especially my friends from Russia, Israel and Palestine. At this time of war, the hardest thing for me to share is that I’m here from a place without war. But I feel like we are destroying others which is part of ourselves. .
But what I learned from my life, when I almost died twice, and as I even lost areas of my destroyed brain, the best thing to learn is to calm my mind.
It’s because all anger turns into illness with me. Many try to stop us from freeing our minds, but this is how we don’t change from hatred, anger, materialism. In other words, it is someone else who manages to leave us manipulated.
I understand, because I didn’t know what to say to my friends in Palestine, Israel, and Russia. My mind never wants to modify my love because of a nationality, we are human beings.
If my house has a Tibetan flag, it is not because of a nationality. For me it is a flag of Impermanence, compassion, and Peace. Love Jules
Now I live in a small town in Brasil. I is called Ubatuba and it is an area where there are many beaches. There are many people who where tired to live in big city’s and far from nature. And being me, I met people who lived years many ears and like spiritually.
Spirituality is an incredible thing. I met a woman at the organic fair in the middle of nature, in a conservation area, in Ubatuba. She’s from São Paulo and doesn’t even know many people in Ubatuba. The day we met, I went with her to solve problems at her house in Ubatuba. In the middle of nature our friendship began.
It took a weak for us to sea her. My new friend Fernanda, told me that she had broken her arm with glass, she had gone to the doctor and said that she should have an operation. The doctor said it was so serious that she should go to São Paulo.
Our friendship began, through messages and forgetting my things that I forgot in her car.
It was a Wednesday and a week ago that we met, I, who can no longer drive, decided to go along
She and I went from Ubatuba to São Paulo. She was driving with one hand, and asked me for help and I, who had injuries to my brain, couldn’t understand what to press. So she wouldn’t think I didn’t want to help, I wanted to make her listen to how many years I spent going to the hospital after my illness started in 2007, she understood.
Well, she stopped thinking she learned how to get words out, but rather told me which part of the car I should press.
It takes place on the first day of November. Many days increase spirituality, the Tibetan House had already informed me that at the Sírio Libanês Hospital, that His Holiness Ratna Vajna Rinpoche would give a talk. But I did not remember, nor thought I could go.
On Sunday I went to see Fe on the 5th, and she said that this trip was incredible spiritually. She went to the hospital on Wednesday and left on Sunday. Even when there is pain, we laugh and smile.
There I felt compassion, spirituality and thinking of my friends in their downfall.
These friends of mine in the fall enter my soul.
I have a faulty memory that reminds me of lama lobsang said when I complained about my illness
“An illness is a gift, it makes you know how to be present.”
As HH Karmapa said to me and reaching my brain. “It’s in your mind. I will always be close”
And when I had the compassion of someone to make me an appointment with HH Ratna Vajra Rinpoch. And when I went, I didn’t want to say anything about my brain injuries, I told my story of how Buddhists always come close to my life.
I had seen Hh Rinpoche in the hospital he said. “But even with material development, we still have sufferings.
I started sending messages to Buddhists and set a private time for me.
I was so happy, but I discovered it was in another city. I told my husband, he was extremely generous and came to São Paulo, and we went to see the other city and the temple.
. Along the way, we saw the sun, nature, trees, cats, dogs and birds. And I sat by the tree and I felt so peaceful
When it came time to speak, I didn’t even know what to say. I told how Buddhism came about with a class from the Dalai Lama because I arrived in India and my ex-husband liked Dharam Sala. But neither of us were Buddhists. But we met Denise there who felt she should go on her private meeting with hh Karmapa. We weren’t even on that quest, and we didn’t even know who Karmapa was. That was in 2008 ‘
So now in 2023 when I sat down to speak Ratana Vajra Rinpoche, without even wanting to know why I was there.
I ask “ why we live here on earth.”
Hh Ratna Vajna Rinpoche said “Since we are alive we have to help others.”
When I asked what lineage of Buddhism of me . He told me they are all connected.
And when I asked what a tree means. He told me Siddhartha was born and died on the side of a tree. So it evolved.
There I understood how all the spirituality in my life comes in trees. Just like I felt about Buddhism, indigenous people, Taoism, tantra and like this friend who went to the hospital and we met by the trees. Just like so much connection between people who have souls, spirituality and nature. And I learned this after my fall. But it was human beings who made me understand, and I have enormous gratitude to you. It was in my first class that Hh Dalai Lama said “Don’t be a Buddhist, respect all religions, respect what is in your you.”
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