As my memory is faulty, I can even see that it is beautiful. Because there are indeed some things that mark us. But so many things have disappeared, that’s okay

Yes, some things stuck with me. One was Lama Lobsang who said pain is a gift. And Dr. Getúlio Rabello told me I should write what I felt when I got sick. It left an impression on me like last year I would say to a girl when I told her about my coma. This makes me ponder.

In my first coma, I saw a woman who asked me if I wanted to live or die. I remember I said I wanted it because of my grandmother, and my boyfriend at that time. This is something spiritual in my opinion, and I don’t even know who it is. That was in 2013.

Well, it’s not that girl I told, she told me “And if it were now, what would you say.”

It touched me so much and I didn’t even know what to respond. Today I think my downfall, my injuries brought me more happiness, learning how to observe pain, and being around these new friends, and people who didn’t abandon me like I was.

I think I love life, and it reminds me of my first neurologist Dr Getúlio who told me, “You write well, intelligently because instead of books why don’t you write for us doctors. You have to describe what you feel.”

What I would say to Dr Getúlio, “you shouldn’t scare the patient, try where I felt the pain. You can breathe and move the pain to another place. You can help me realize that pain is your friend to find out. What if You know how to meditate, you will be able to do it even if you dominate your mind, but you need to see that pain is your friend to help you, it wants to show you how to live, that’s how we are born, but you know, we have to observe pain and protect our mind, and take it away. fear. Fear harms our lives”

I would also tell him that he should tell his patients that we use 3 percent of the brain, and I only learned about it after my brain injuries . There, in that moment of despair, we have to encourage thinking about the positive things about falls, not the negative things. Even stimulating other areas of the brain that I never used. I would even say that food is very related to the mind, it helps me recover. I knew none of this before my illness, which changes its name all the time

Well, I, with brain injuries, write wrong, not ashamed of mistakes due to disability, I like to write everything for everyone, peace, the soul doesn’t get stuck in the negative, my mistakes make me do everything slowly. And I even counted my mistakes of the soul.

These days I opened up to Monja Tenzin and my new friends after my injuries

You know since 2013 that I always think I was invented, it goes back and forth in my mind.

Nun Tenzin told me
“You who had 2 comas and brain injuries have improved a lot, but it’s still not everything, but you have to think about how well you are, sometimes you can create new fantasy scenarios. It may not be. good for avoiding negative things.

And even if it’s true 💚, whatever we can do, that’s okay. Even if we can do it. If people don’t like us, but we let it in our hearts let it go down. Think only about positive things. “

So yes, you know, I would tell everyone if I’m better it’s because I want to encourage everyone not to get stuck in a classification of a disease, and injuries. In fact, my blog is classified as decolonind my Mind. But it is in Portuguese.

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Before, I didn’t even know what I wanted to decolonize from. Today I think I don’t want to decolonize the prisons of my mind and want to prove it.

I write to understand that if I had this coma and this girl came, I must make everyone realize that we have lost the speed of being present. It even makes me observe everything with compassion.

So if I had the third coma, I would say “I want to live close to people with beautiful spirituality to tell about my ego, and discover what I want to free myself from and tell so that no one is trapped in a classification of illness as if we don’t exist, because that’s where we discover the beauty of existence

But you know, we don’t need another coma, but it is in our fall that we will slowly realize that the Pain comes from the spiritual side of the people around you and you didn’t even realize it. There I see the beauty of life

With Love Jules.